Like I needed something else to do

I took a few days off from work this week. Work is getting tough for me. I'm starting to get weary of the repitition of my job and of the long hours sitting at a desk all day. Being the self-proclaimed computer geek that I am, that just feels like crazy talk. But since I've become more active, I get antsy if I have to sit still for too long.

I think it's also getting difficult because I now have a timeline to change things. I know that in a year and a half, I will need to leave my current job (or take a sabbatical if they still offer it) to go chasing my dream, which will hopefully turn into a career.

This fall, I'm starting full-time coursework towards a graduate degree in Business Education. In the spring of 2012, I'll need to take time off in order to student teach for a semester. My hope is that financial aid will help us survive, and that I'll be able to land a teaching job that fall, either in high school business classes or middle school computer classes.

It's scary. It's exciting. It's making me feel impatient. I haven't had a class since 2003. I have to do this AND work full-time. And I want to be teaching NOW ;)

Am I going to be able to handle it all with a family & so much responsibility? I pray that I can. I wouldn't have dreamed of trying to do this a year ago, but lots of therapy & urging from my counselor pushed me to try this. I never thought it possible Adam & I could both go to school at the same time. Of course, I didn't think it was possible we could survive without him working, either, but here we are 8 months later and truly blessed to have made it through. I thank God for that because there were some scary moments during that time, but we were able to get past them.

So I am hopeful I can do this. To fully turn around my life, I NEED something to change. I need to find a job I love, something I truly want to do. And I feel like this is the direction I need to go.

One of my vacation days this week was spent getting my parking pass & student ID. 9 days until my first day of classes, and I am ready to get this bus rolling.