Purple Toes

Adam was offered a job at a temporary staffing agency. So we don't have to worry about the extension for ourselves, though I still hope it passes for the families that desperately need it. The job hunt is not getting any easier.

Downsides to the job? He'll be making exactly the same amount he was in unemployment, so we'll have to continue to walk that careful line of $12 account balances until one of us gets paid.

The bigger problem is that it's second shift, 3-11:30pm. This is a HUGE problem. Spidey, my 7 year-old stepson, has an autistic spectrum disorder, and because of his behavior, it's extremely difficult to find babysitters that are willing to take him for long periods of time. Daycares won't take him because of the disorder. And because Adam won't be making any more money, we can't pay anyone.

So this is going to be a struggle. Adam HAD to take the job or lose unemployment. We're going to try to come up with a plan that has Spidey going to different family members different days of the week to make it less stressful for everyone.

I don't know what's going to happen when college starts at the end of August. We'll cross that bridge when we get to it. For now, as long as this temp job holds out for at least 6 weeks, we should be OK.

This has not been a horrible week, but it's not been a great one either. There have been fights & letters written for therapy, crazy exes, anxiety, anger, and lots of fear.

But while I normally would be hitting up "cupcake therapy" for moments like these, I've been staying on plan this week. The food hasn't been quite as healthy, and there have been more mashed potatoes & rolls than I should probably have, but I'm hitting my calorie range & ratios. I exercised Tues, Wed, & Thurs, but I skipped today because I've been having some nagging back pain between my shoulder blades & I wanted to rest a day before my swim.

In honor of hitting my first mini-goal last Monday, I decided to buy some cheap $2 flip-flops & some nail polish & paint my nails.

I can count on my hands the number of times I've painted my nails before. It's tedious and I've never been much of a girly-girl type.

Dropping a bottle of nail polish on my new white "everyday" shoes yesterday did not help my mood, either.

But I decided to stick it out. I got another bottle of polish & spent a surprisingly enjoyable night on my nails.

They didn't turn out too bad for my first attempt in years.





I can't see myself doing this every week. But maybe once or twice a month. I can buy a cheap bottle of polish here and there, and probably come up with a decent collection. I tend to gravitate towards funkier colors, like blues & purples, but some pinks every now and then aren't out of the question.

After the week I've had, I'm hoping tomorrow's swim helps relax me enough to enjoy the weekend.